Happy Birthday Little Girl
Today was Creamie’s birthday. She is two, and she doesn’t even know it. It has been a rough weekend, well, since about Thursday I guess. She has been so sick, and had such a terrible cough that makes her scream and cry it hurts her so much. Through tears and screams of pain she tells me she has an owwie in her chest. I had big plans, we were going to celebrate and have cake, and presents, and go to the aquarium with my dad, and take some cute birthday pictures and it was going to be a wonderful day. Instead we sat on the couch for day four in a row and watched Charlie Brown movies. And then I took her to the doctor, which was unpleasant for both of us. He can’t find anything really wrong. No ear infections, no sinus infection, clean lungs, no RSV or pneumonia (thank goodness), just a sick little girl.
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I haven’t even wrapped her present because I want to save it for the day that really feels like her birthday. So today we “celebrated” with one blue grocery store balloon. And I didn’t even think about it until we were waiting at the grocery store pharmacy for the prescription to be filled. Sigh. She is finally asleep, and hasn’t woken up in a coughing fit for two full hours. And for that I am grateful. But I kind of feel like a terrible mother tonight. I know there are lots of reasons to not feel terrible. She is sick, she doesn’t know what she is missing so it isn’t hurting her, it’s not like she has been anticipating her birthday for months and months, so it’s not like you are stealing her birthday from her, I’m exhausted from not sleeping more than 30 minutes at a time for a week, she wouldn’t enjoy it anyway because she’s sick, I have plans for a real birthday as soon as she is well, blah blah blah. It doesn’t matter. I still feel like my little girl missed the one day of the year that is hers. And it makes me sad.
I’m going to take a little break from blogging. I have things in my real life that need some serious undivided attention for a little while. Thank you so much for all your wonderful support of what I post here. Thank you for the comments, and for the little bits of kindness that you have shared with me. I’m grateful for those of you who have introduced yourselves, and for the friends I’ve made in the past little while. Thank you to those of you who read but never comment, and those who comment often. I’ll be back soon. And I hope it is with some awesome pictures of a belated birthday party.
pinksuedeshoe 
did the doctor check for asthma?
Dear Pink and Sweet Family,
I hope that all the stresses will calm quickly….remember that these are the days of greatest growth. Isn’t that a crazy thing to say mid the storm? Someone told me that when I had a very young family…she had nine children and she had been where I was…25 years later…she was right…all those sleepless nights…and trying times become our defining moments…and even sometimes our greatest memories. I hope you all sleep well tonight.
You are all in our prayers,
Rebecca from California…I met you in the airport when you were on your way to your quilt show.
I am so grateful we met for that short moment…you reminded me so much of my girls as you sat in the airport working so hard on a project for your blog when you returned home. My youngest son laughs when he sees me reading your blog. You are like a movie star in our home…because of your blog and great typewriters my son wanted one…so he began his search…I don’t think he ever knew such cool looking ones existed. So now after seeing your vintage sheet collection and pyrex collection….he thinks you are so cool…as does the rest of the family. Thanks for sharing with us.
Yes, yes, yes, you must take some time now. We will all be here when you return.
Take care of your sweet baby and take care of yourself.
And I hope you will stop beating yourself up about the birthday. Any day that our family chooses to celebrate our life and our place in the family – be it our birthday or not – is a special day indeed. She will never know her celebration was delayed. Please don’t focus any more on one day on some ole calendar.
With YOU at the head of the planning committee I just know her day will be fabulous!
I have her in my prayers and I hope she is much better very soon.
I saw a blog post back before Christmas that was reminding us about “life beyond the screen.” It really hit home for me and made me remember what is most important: PEOPLE. Relationships. Family. Friends. I certainly hope your wee one gets well soon. Enjoy your time away from, “the screen”. 🙂
hope things get better! there is nothing harder or worse than a sick child. get some rest, and stop feeling guilty! i have no doubt you’ll make it up to her when she’s better 🙂 hang in there!!
I hope the blogging break is what you need to get back on track.
Oh, poor baby! I don’t post much but love reading your blog. You are amazing! Why didn’t I get any of this talent? We are blood related, right ? ? I’ll just live through you 🙂
It’s great to take a break sometimes. Recharge the creative juices. Love ya!
Poor Creamie. Poor Mom! I’m sorry she’s been feeling so ill. You definitely needn’t feel bad about her birthday. She’ll get her day and I bet she’ll be glad she gets to enjoy it when she’s healthy. We’re sending positive, healing thoughts your way. And if that’s not good enough, let me know. I hear that cookies from neighbors always help. 🙂
Poor lil girl. Hope she gets better and that you can have a fun birthday for her 🙂
Poor girl, i hope she gets better soon! Don’t be too hard on yourself, you are a good mommy!
Take all the time you need, we’re not going anywhere. Poor little gal, it sounds like strep if it hurts that much. I hope she’ll be all better soon and when she is, that a fun party celebrating her 2+ birthday will happen and everyone will have a great time! Love and hugs. k xx
Sending you hugs… I’ll be here when you get back, waiting for more inspiration. And I’ll continue to send you random links when I stumble upon them:-)
Dear E!
Its awful when a child is sick like this. I promise things will get better.
While I love your blog, some things are just more important such as Creamie’s health, your peace of mind, getting the rest you need, etc. I agree with Pam (from above) , we will be here when you get back.
No more worries about the birthday , ok? You can start planning the most fabulous bday party EVER. Once I had my sons 3 & 1/2 bday party…. everybody thought i was crazy but it turned out just fine. What matters is the love she feels everyday and I am 100 percent sure she receives love every day.
Take care of yourself and your sweet family.
Paige
I hope that Creamie is much better very soon! Also, please do take some time for yourself! Once she is better, you can really celebrate her birthday, the fact that she is feeling better, and that hopefully, you too have been recharged some!!
Will be here reading upon your return!! We all need time for ourself and seldom ever take it!!
Don’t beat yourself up, for her it will be so much better to have a lovely birthday once she is feeling well than knowing that today is her birthday and she feels so bad she can’t even enjoy it.
And knowing you (well, I don’t really know you, just follow your blog) I’m sure you’ll more than make it up to her and it will be a wonderfull day for her.
Best wishes for you all!
Theres a time and a season for everything. Hope all goes well. My SIL just wrote on her blog that if you slather the bottoms of your feet with Vick’s vapor rub and then put socks on before sleeping it’ll keep you from coughing. Lots of people swear by it. I haven’t gotten to try it, but maybe it’ll help your sick little girl get some better sleep.
Happy birthday Creamie but oh no, you poor thing. And poor momma too. It is soo hard to see your child suffer and in pain. I will be praying for both of you. Clarice
Creamie! I’m so glad you were born (I started typing this message a few days ago, but something went wrong with my computer… and I thought maybe I’d have pics of you feeling better and celebrating by now).
I hope you’re feeling better sweet girl… and I am hoping to meet you in a couple months… and I’ve got you on the short list of those who can marry my son. 😉
Tell your mama hi and I hope she’s hanging in there. And get some sleep too… deal?
i rarely comment, but i love your blog and i felt the need to send you some happy vibes!
i hope your little girl gets better! and don’t beat yourself up about not celebrating her birthday on her birthday- when i was little (about 3 or 4 i believe) i got really, really sick 3 days before christmas. at the time i was the only child in my immediate and extended family, so my mom basically rescheduled christmas until i was no longer sick (which was about a week later!). santa still came and ate cookies and drank the milk i left for him, my stocking was full and there was still presents under the tree. and my entire family was there to celebrate. just a week later. and you know what? it was wonderful, and i never missed a thing.
creamie is still little, so even though it hurts you to know that her special day wasn’t so special, to her it’s just another day. if you make another day a a special day for her when she’s feeling up to it, she’ll love it. and you will to. and years from now when you tell her how you rescheduled her birthday because she was sick, she’ll love and appreciate you for it because you went the extra mile and still gave her a birthday to remember even though (technically) her birthday was over.